Wednesday, 9 September 2009
... & i am going to miss you.
9th September 2009
been down for 2 days. and lastnight, i smiled at last. embarrasing, and yet i am happy she's not that mad anymore.
*i hope you like what i got you love =]*
it's 2 days left till you're off back to UK. and i hate thinking about it.
time flies. and i was hoping i could just break those wings off them =]
and yes it took me awhile to confess to you face to face, but i'm glad i did. it's better late than never.
*was going to do it when i'm sending you off on Friday but, since you don't want me to come that day, so i did it lastnight =]*
and love, i am telling the truth about you. never one word is a lie, just so that you know x]
she's going to stay in UK for a year plus, not coming back for semester breaks. yeah there's facebook and MSN, but.. it's not going to be the same.
yes this is life. we never get what we really wanted. maybe you'll say i'm lame, and a jerk, but.. i care =]
and thanks for the two days hell you gave me. thanks for making me realise that i do care for you :]
*and love, i am still sorry that i made you mad*
well i'm off. i'm in class and i don't have a clue what the tutor is teaching us =.=
& can you stay?
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Sunday, 6 September 2009
Sorry
to sufi. im sorry =) didnt mean to. cat got my tongue. maybe you're hating me now. i dont mind. well maybe this is the last, and i just want you to know i've been adoring you since this past few weeks. and.. mm.. sorry once again.
& maybe it's for the better.
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Monday, 24 August 2009
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!
24th August 2009
12.15am i am writing this, and today is my sister's 18th birthday (;
i am currently at the CoffeeZone in Kiulap and we're celebrating her birthday just a few minutes ago. gahahaha. my sister is getting old. tidak kecil lagi =.='
anyways, maybe i'll post some pictures later. maybe. itu pictures of her birthday celebration. it's late and i have classes later T.T omg puasa lagi. GAHHHHHH.
goodnight everyone.
& it's 2 days, 19 hours and 36 minutes left till you're back x]
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Sunday, 23 August 2009
for the egg (;
23rd August 2009
back to blogging =]
today's the first day of the fasting month. and i was hungry. gahaha. Happy Fasting people x]
so, how have i been doing..? i've been good, great. got into ITB (i turned down the BST scholarship. whee~) and took HND in Communication and Computer Systems Engineering (got this course instead of Internet and Multimedia T.T). life's been great. for the past few weeks, it has been great. made new friends in ITB. studying in a good environment. blablabla~
and i participated in the MJ tribute event. a lot of dancers, yesyes. got to know a lot of people and.. her =] aha. it was a great experience dancing with you guys. i've missed you all. sufi, zatty, fuad, fakhri, hadi, farhan, hasra, kj, anip, hafiz, epal, qawi, khalis and others. thanks for the fun i had =] THANK YOU.
now.. about her ;] aha. petite, lovable, squeakable(literally) andd adorable x] she makes me laugh for the past weeks in rehearsals. she's on vacation currently, KL. get home soon love. i miss you =]
well that's it for now. i'll blog again soon (or else she'll kill me :D) happy fasting!
P/S: itam's family, gather, sungkai in mid puasa month. get a voting system for when and where the venue will be held.
& its 3 days 15 hours and 24 minutes left till you're back :]
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Sunday, 3 May 2009
thank you (:
i was reading through someone's blog, and i came across with this quote, and believe me, after reading it, it feels a lot better (:
"live with no excuses, love with no regrets"
thanks, and sorry Mun i wrote this quote in my blog without your permission. sorry yeah?
"live with no excuses, love with no regrets"
thanks, and sorry Mun i wrote this quote in my blog without your permission. sorry yeah?
& it's just another path, another route i'll be taking (:
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Thursday, 30 April 2009
it hurts (:
" yees, because i dont wanna like you or be close friends with you.
fullstop."
fullstop."
that was the last text she sent me. idk why, but i just want to be friends (': oh well. i better not make this a very long thing to write. i respect her still. and im not lying anymore (: thank you, teman (:
& i hope you live forever, my friend.
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life (:
well, basically it sucks. serious shit.
idk what i should be taking, ITB or that BST scholarship. i mean that scholarship's cool, i can go UK, Japan and Korea afterwards. and ITB, the course im taking is under Internet and Multimedia, which is one of my interests.
sigh. still looking for a job. nada bha. shial =.= i need money. seriously.
and and i miss my old life (: haha. i know i shouldn't be, but hey, i miss it. like entah, i was happy. well now i'm not. got the point? mahn i would give anything to be happy again.
and and i miss my old life (: haha. i know i shouldn't be, but hey, i miss it. like entah, i was happy. well now i'm not. got the point? mahn i would give anything to be happy again.
see that? i think a lot ;p hahaha. stupid ass guy looking out of the window. you had your chances and you blew it. thanks a lot (:
anyway i should be going i guess. having an interview later (; toodles.
anyway i should be going i guess. having an interview later (; toodles.
*SCREAMMSSSSS*
& suppose that i miss you (:
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Monday, 20 April 2009
one night to remember
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BABY WAFIY!! XD
this video is taken from his birthday party. and mahn was it wild. with all those lasers and smokescreens, gahhhhh!!
I HAD A GREAT TIME!! XD
and oh yeah, to that girl whom i pulled from the sofa, can i have your number? XP GAGAGAGA.
well shitty things happened before the party so i'm not gonna blog about it (:
and to wafiy darls..
"SOMEBODY'S GONNA GET LAIDD...!"
HAHAHAHAHA!!
blame hadi baby. he started it :p whee~
okay i'm off.
& i love dancing with you (:
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Saturday, 18 April 2009
& it's karma.
its never meant to be (:
& like an arrow piercing my heart.
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Thursday, 16 April 2009
when i say..
i'll wait.
and you'd say..
move on.
now i know why.
i was so fucking annoying.
yes i was.
and i still am.
haha.
why'd i say that?
because people are leaving me one by one, thats why.
don't say that's not true.
i can see it.
well its too late for that now, aint it? (:
buhbye friends.
& still, i lied.
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Tuesday, 31 March 2009
my wish for now?
- a camera!
a basic Nikon D60's enough.. /kirai2
- money!
& lots of them! ;D
- 350z!
pearl silver with a metallic coat. whoa.
- a friend?
someone that is true to me :) seriously. i need one now.
& last and most important is,
- si ella damit xp
i'll get you back somehow ;p yes memajal, idc xD saya sudah jatuh cinta ama kamu. wahahaha!!
& somehow i just want you back ;D
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Wednesday, 25 March 2009
home alone
yeap.
im alone.
family gone to Limbang.
got nothing to do.
sigh.
i just wish she's here (':
& still i remember..
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Wednesday, 11 March 2009
. . . .
she's happy? (:
& it was in summer we sang that song
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alhamdulillah..
I PASSED (:
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(=
been to the bridals a lot lately.
and ive been thinking..
will i ever get to be a part in it too? (:
heh.
well i guess i wont be.
a plan.
3 years, remind me.
5 years, promise me.
7 years, i'll stay.
and after 9 years, i'll take you away. and thats a promise (:
yes i am crazy. thanks.
& as i wait for nothing.
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Friday, 27 February 2009
& again.
i am totally bored ='D
i am homealone, dan sedang melayan sakit hati kuu~
wuw.
to tell you the truth people, i am still not okay (':
sigh..
imma be away from the lappy for quite awhile, and maybe i'll not blog in this coming few days.
i want to lock myself in my room and
good day.
& maybe i'll try again.
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Wednesday, 25 February 2009
another randomness.
i wrote some random things in my mobile phone..
i dont know if it makes sense or not..
but yeah, im posting it here anyway..
let time get past us..
and maybe we'll forget..
maybe we won't..
and maybe we'll cry..
maybe you already did..
and maybe i just can't..
maybe you don't..
and maybe i still love you..
random ae? (:
here's more..
close your eyes..
& open it..
do you see me?
& what awaits..?
in these depths unfathomed?
in these shadows unfolded?
fear and darkness aligned?
i closed my eyes, wishing that you would be beside me..
i opened it, hoping that you'd be the first that i'd see..
and as i closed it again, i cried..
well, that's it for now. actually there's more but, i'll post it in later days (:
& i'll wait
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Sunday, 22 February 2009
random..
4 p.m.
a day, another day.. one step closer to what i want to achieve to have, a fairly good life (: scholarship, yeay. oi, pray for me people? (x
1 a.m.
sigh.. why did it happened? why? i wished for it to not to.. i prayed for it to not to.. then why did it happened? hehehe! oh my this is one big question in my head. and yes, i think it's better for me to get it out of my chest.
I MISS YOU, ELLA NABILA (':
... not enough.
I REALLY MISS YOU, ELLA NABILA!
... sigh..
well, does it matter now? ('x she's happy, and that's what matters. yes, that's what's important now.. her happiness.
omg, i love you x'D
- & if time would stop, i'd turn it back to before.
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Tuesday, 17 February 2009
it has been awhile..
woahh..
i didnt blogged for a week? hah.
well i was busy, with stuffs..
my driver's going back to his country.. had some spring cleaning at my old house in Sg Akar.. ( im at Madang now xp ) & getting ready for college =) sigh.. soon.. until i change my mind about it. woowee...
now..
im getting my driver's license, a new song is coming.. & err.. let's just say.. im holding to what i call faith =)
i saw my past, and yes, im still holding to it..
i dont care what people would say, but im holding to it :)
& this is my last words.. imy (':
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Wednesday, 11 February 2009
...
this is not how i wanted it to be (':
& its just another song of the diary..
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