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January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
August 2009
September 2009

i am totally bored ='D

i am homealone, dan sedang melayan sakit hati kuu~

wuw.

to tell you the truth people, i am still not okay (':

sigh..

imma be away from the lappy for quite awhile, and maybe i'll not blog in this coming few days.

i want to lock myself in my room and watch dvd play video games sleep (:

good day.

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(Verse 1)
Silly dreams I wake.
It was just a memory of how we used to be baby.
Early in the morning you would always call me.
And say how much you've missed me.
I think about, the times we shared.
Girl I'd give the world to have it all back again.
Even though the seasons been passing by,
I can't seem to get you off my mind.

(Chorus)
I can't get over you.
No I can't get over you.
Over and over I've tried to say goodbye.
(No, I can't. No I can't)
I can't get over you.
No I can't get over you.
Night after night I've asked myself why?
(Why I can't get over you.)

(Verse 2)
What can I do to stop this madness inside?
Should I go out?
Should I stay at home?
Just the thought of you with another guy,
Makes me lose control,
I'm going out of my mind.
When we're together, you made me feel better than anyone could ever.
All the pain and troubles, just burst away like bubbles baby.
And when the seasons are standing still,
It feels like eternity in my mind.

(Chorus)

(Rap Bridge)
Ever since the day we said
Farewell my life's been filled
With silence,
Can't deny it
Laws of love and I can't defy it.
Driving down to your house one day,
Trying to think of sweet words to say,
Then I saw in your eyes that look of demise.
Now I can't stop thinking 'bout the times we -
Made out by the fireside,
Had dinner by the candlelight,
Broke up and made up so many times,
All vanished in just one night.
Now what am I supposed to do,
In a nightmare that I thought would never come true?
You used to say time heals all wounds.
Tell me why I can't get over you.

(Chorus x 2)

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my eyes are red. -.-
too much youtube-ing..
and my head is hurting like hell..
nye.
well today was a really boring day.






hmm.. i am missing someone (:
yes yes we know who (x
she's busy i guess.
doing what, i don't know.
i would want to know, but umm..
neah, wouldn't want to disturb her (:
hee.

well that's it for today.
and a random quote for today..

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i find this song, amusing (: aha.



Lirik Lagu Aurora-Estranged

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i wrote some random things in my mobile phone..

i dont know if it makes sense or not..

but yeah, im posting it here anyway..



let time get past us..
and maybe we'll forget..

maybe we won't..
and maybe we'll cry..

maybe you already did..
and maybe i just can't..

maybe you don't..
and maybe i still love you..



random ae? (:

here's more..




close your eyes..
& open it..
do you see me?




& what awaits..?
in these depths unfathomed?
in these shadows unfolded?
fear and darkness aligned?





i closed my eyes, wishing that you would be beside me..
i opened it, hoping that you'd be the first that i'd see..
and as i closed it again, i cried..




well, that's it for now. actually there's more but, i'll post it in later days (:

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4 p.m.

a day, another day.. one step closer to what i want to achieve to have, a fairly good life (: scholarship, yeay. oi, pray for me people? (x


1 a.m.

sigh.. why did it happened? why? i wished for it to not to.. i prayed for it to not to.. then why did it happened? hehehe! oh my this is one big question in my head. and yes, i think it's better for me to get it out of my chest.

I MISS YOU, ELLA NABILA (':

... not enough.

I REALLY MISS YOU, ELLA NABILA!

... sigh..


well, does it matter now? ('x she's happy, and that's what matters. yes, that's what's important now.. her happiness.


omg, i love you x'D

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woahh..

i didnt blogged for a week? hah.

well i was busy, with stuffs..

my driver's going back to his country.. had some spring cleaning at my old house in Sg Akar.. ( im at Madang now xp ) & getting ready for college =) sigh.. soon.. until i change my mind about it. woowee...

now..

im getting my driver's license, a new song is coming.. & err.. let's just say.. im holding to what i call faith =)

i saw my past, and yes, im still holding to it..

i dont care what people would say, but im holding to it :)

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this is not how i wanted it to be (':

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oh my..
last night i had this dream..
and..

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here's the song i made.

in an hour.

fuhh.

it was hard.

and i hope it's a pleasent to hear.

i cant sing, sorry (:



there..

i hope you're happy ella. and sorry. (: i love you. always.

god bless (:

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life is unfair, no?

its just, idk..

now that she's no longer.. around.

i hate myself for that.

i havent slept.

i havent eaten.

my head is hurting like hell.

aish.

made a song.

i'll put it here next time.

maybe.

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days go by, and SHIT HAPPENS (:

SATURDAY, 31ST JAN.

went to school, bla-bla-bla, statement of results, bla-bla-bla, friggin' bad grades, bla-bla-bla.

here's where the shitty thing happens. as i was getting my statement of result, meeting those teachers sitting inside the MP room..

i want to get my slip of statement of result and the teachers go, uhh, inda dapt pasal kau alum balikkan buku and i go whaaaaa??? ngek eh, rupa2nya ada buku ku ilang!!!! buduh.

and that night, she ends it (: noice.

haha i wont say what happened, but lets just say i'd feel like killing myself, tapikan, kalau th jua jadi ku kan bunuh diri, krg marah urg atu. hahahaha. hawu ja? wuuuu. aku sakit ati (:

next, moving on? fuckers, im not interested. made a promise, whether you like it or not, im not moving on. sampai kemati jua :p wuuuu aku emo. heeeee. EMOSI nya, hawu ja? ;p anyways, benar, dari hati. ako sayang. benar2 th ku sayang x')

sigh..

maybe it does ends like that..

then i called up a friend of mine. good friend. one of the best friend. and i told him to pick me up. and we went to gadong and somewhere else idk i wasnt paying any attentions and it was like.. 2.00 am?

haaa banyak urg yawwwwwwww. pundan pun ada ;p wuuuuuuu. and we went round2 brunei muara ne. what things we were doing? adaler (: kami ja tau. kamu na payah xD

after that he sent me home... pastu.. tidor lah. it was like 4.30am kah..? ae biar ae. suka inda suka peduli apaku. mana jua urg kn ingau anak buduh sorg ane yg nda dpt diharap ah. harhar.

SUNDAY, 1ST FEB

today... 8.00am went to menglait to play some basketball. buang stress lah. sakit kepala kan pengsan ganya inda main ah. harhar. baby jainul ku nda datang. nyu. semuanya menyakitkan atiku. harhar. pastu... played pingpong sama durg caesar and dizi, went to dizi's house watching tennis. i fell asleep, shit, malu wah -.-

oh yeah, i had an accident driving kaka's car xD siokkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! kana marah ku lagi. haaaaaaaaaa.

MONDAY, 2ND FEB

happy annie (: and i cried ('x

TUESDAY, 3rd FEB

went to school, empire, gadong and balik rumah tidor. nothing's exciting (:

WEDNESDAY, 4TH FEB

been thinking. i should go away, no? (':

and something tells me that you don't care anymore.

done. i fucking hate myself. now go away. shoooo.

where's my love,

where's my hope,

and where's my reason to live..

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